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I've lost my baby in the making on this date. Lucky that I don't have to go through the D&C. During my 1st prenatal visit with Dr S, I have an instinct that something's wrong with the baby. I've experiencing minor cramping but when I asked Dr. S she just smile saying that I didn't have to be worried since it's normal. She tried scanning the baby to make sure it's not an ectopic. She said my uterus swelling as in normal pregnancy but she can't find the baby since it was only 5 weeks and 3 days at that time. She asked me to do the urine test. And the fainted double line was the result. I didn't told her that I've done home test twice and it's still a positive result. She said it was a 50-50 result so she provided me another UPT and ask me to do the test again early in the morning where the urine is most concentrate. And, for the 4th time... it's postive & fainted but better than the 1st test done in my previous entry.


On 090110, a brownish spotting occur and at that moment, I told myself to be strong and ready to be facing with an early miscarriage. Blood starting to flow the next morning but still I didn't see a doctor since female doctor is only availabe from Monday to Wednesday at my place. Then, late in the evening when I was in the shower, I was surprised to see something on the pad.. I thought it was a blood clot but no... it's texture was more to a flesh. Me and hubby rush to the emergency and the doctor confirmed it was a complete abortion. I was warded for a nite and the next morning the doctor again confirmed I didn't have to go through D&C.. everything's have come out completely. Guess have to try again next time.

What To Expect??

The book that have been abandoned few years back is now ready to be my valuable resource again. Yup... I'm expecting the 3rd.. It's very early to announce where some expectant patiently wait until the 1st trimester ended to make it the BIG NEWS to friends. But today, being alone making me really in needs of my usual writing therapy. This news is actually already in the Bestfriends's Headlines.

This is my 1st UPT results. I took the test 1 day before my period is due.It's actually a double line but the other is very faint line that took me snapping several shots with my hp's camera to make it noticeable but it fails hahaha. I was too eager to do the test since I was off pills for about 4-5 months and I do having morning sickness. But after the 1st test I was in doubt, controlling myself on not to be excited since it might be the wrong results since I bought the cheapest UPT heheh. 2 days later, that is the 2nd day I missed the period, I took another test with the most expensive UPT and recommended by doctors (said on the box).

Can you read the word 'pregnant' ?? heheh... Cool huh... I'm in my 1st month... another 8 months to go before the baby expected to see the world the first week of September (or the final week of August judging from the early-than-due labors of the baby's bro and sis.

The Lost Gold

Salam to all.. it’s been a while since I wrote the last post.. dunno how to start.. probably what I have in mind right now is about the lost of my precious gold necklace. Yeahh… I have 2, 1 was a gift from bapa for the PMR excellence & the other is from mama simply for her only daughter to have it as a-mom-to-daughter-tradition-gift. Guess which one was lost?? The one I wrote with the bold was… huhuhuh….

From the time when I was confirmed that my second child is a girl, I have promised that the girl will have the tradition gift from me. I didn’t have a tough time though on deciding which necklace I should give away. It’s not that I like it more than the other. I love both but since the ‘was’ (hahah… feeling like naming it as ‘was’) have no pendant yet, so I took into consideration that the new pendant should be engraved with arwen’s name.

It’s a shame that I didn’t know the ‘Who’, or ‘How’, ‘Where’ and ‘When’ details. If all are known, then it shouldn’t be called lost lah kan.. maybe Snatched or Robbed. Anyway, I’m glad Arwen was not harmed and didn’t bruise. We only realized the ‘lost’ after MIL asked where the ‘was’ were. And it’s the day that we have many people coming in and out of the house since it’s my lil bro’s malam berinai. To all, it seems like someone is doing the bad thing, but hubby has done tracking with the pictures of arwen and we concluded that it was lost after 6^th Dec and before relatives and neighbors started coming to our house to help with the wedding chores.

Sedih memang sedih, tapi semua yang terjadi mesti ada hikmah disebaliknya. Tapi yang bikin panas tu masa kenduri ni la banyak benda-benda kecik hilang. Yang wajib hilang apa lagi… selipar la… iskk… my crocs sandal, and my children’s toilet flip flop. So, as a reminder to me and to all my friends, if you’re having lotsa people in the house, do keep all your valuables in a locked room. Do not let anyone enter any rooms without you or your family present. Better be cautious than be sorry.

Sports Woman

Today, our team managed to be the champion in Netball and Volleyball... wah tak kusangka aku boleh main volleyball ropanya hahaha... I was actually listed as a reserved player, then after being force to play in the 2nd set for the 1st game, mcm confident pulak main sebab 80% of my serve ball (adaka this term? heheh) menjadi kekeke... Tomorrow will play for badminton huhuhuh... ini pun bidan terjun jugak ni... matilah ni kana smash!!!!

Tarap - Making Sabah very da unique

Buah tarap - the unique fruit that can only be found at certain areas in Borneo. heheh this is the after pics actually... am counting how many ulas that got in my stomach

My guess.. this fruit comes from the same family(Moraceae) as cempedak and nangka (a.k.a jackfruit)So good you can even have it on it's own or goreng buat mcm cempedak goreng or buat bubur nyum.. nyum... but I only found out about one pantang recently ... well, this fruit tidak masak on tree.. kena ambil then perap baru dia masak... so the pantang said, the fuit cannot touch our knees or else the fruit will never ready to be eaten... is it really true??

Goodbye friends, Hello beloved family...

Today is the rest day... tomorrow is traveling day... the sport is over (olahraga and tarik tali lah... other games have not yet started). We took the opportunity to chill out and have drinks and foods outside the academy. At the same time, am counting the minutes to go back home to see, hug and kiss arwen, anaqin and hubby of coz... wait for me... i'll be flying tomorrow... for all the friends, I really enjoyed being with the team and a zillion thanks for the supports.

2nd Bronze

Unexpected 2nd medal... lady C punya pasal I have to help the team to complete the quartet. Okay jugaklah since my actual event I didn't get any medal placing hahaha... teruk tull lahh... no speed, technique is there <-- coach and the team said (maybe sbb mo jaga ati pun ada jugaklah why they're saying that ikekeke)

But today also we received sad news... Lady G's father passed away this afternoon.. no wonder lah she feels sooo not going to the stadium today, she said she had a fever... my condolence to you and family... I'll always treasure our friendship... and to all olahraga teammate, nice knowing you all.. the wider the network, the easier we work...